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Molly Bear Testimonials

Peyton Avery and Baby M

During the middle of May 2014, we found out we were expecting our first child. I had told my husband about my suspicion of possibly being pregnant and we had decided to take a pregnancy test together that evening when he got home from work. Well, I couldn't wait that long. As the test read positive, I immediately streamed happy tears. We had just started trying and I just remember feeling overwhelming joy. I told my husband that evening and his reaction was everything I had hoped to see.

After letting it sink in somewhat, my husband put his back against our refrigerator and slid down to the kitchen floor, saying ever so sweetly, "It's going to be a girl! I'm going to be so outnumbered!" (Side note: We have two ornery, female Yorkshire Terrier puppies). I will always remember that moment.

Fast forward to the gender reveal party. My husband found out the gender at our anatomy sonogram the Tuesday prior to the party on Saturday, as he wanted to surprise me, along with the rest of our family members. He did just that! He had convinced me all week long somehow that we were going to be welcoming a sweet little boy into the world. I was EXTREMELY surprised and very excited when the box of balloons sprung out pink balloons. That moment will forever be one of the best memories that I share with my husband.

Around 25 weeks during the pregnancy, my doctor had concerns about the rate that my stomach was growing so we went in for a sonogram one morning. That same afternoon I was called back in to see the specialist doctor she pairs with and another sonogram was done. Peyton was measuring three weeks small and I was put on growth restriction. At the time, I thought that was the worst news I could hear. I cried off and on that night, wondering what I could do differently to help my baby grow. My husband was supportive and encouraged me to think positively and pray. We did pray, every day and every night, hoping and praying that the worst to happen was that she may come early, but that she would have enough medical support to be safe. We began doing monthly sonograms to measure her growth and weekly biophysical assessments on Peyton to measure her respiration, heart rate, blood flow, movement, and amniotic fluid levels.

On November 26th, 2014, at 30 weeks pregnant (the day before Thanksgiving that year), we went in for a regularly scheduled check-up. Our sonogram technician could not find Peyton's heartbeat. I remember looking at her, then looking at my husband, and just immediately falling into the loudest sob I had ever managed. My husband came over and grabbed my hands and started praying with me. Of everything that tragically happened that day, I will always remember that his instinct was to pray and I will feel forever grateful for him for reminding me to trust in God and not to blame Him for our loss. Instead we have focused on Peyton being in Heaven and God being her protector. I gave birth to her at 11:45 PM that night and I will never forget any of this experience... The precious moments, the unbelievable love, and also the pain. I still remember the smallest details... What I ate for breakfast that morning, the work that I did that morning, that we had plans to grocery shop for our Thanksgiving meal after visiting the doctor like it would be just another normal day, what we were wearing, and how the weather felt on Thanksgiving Day that year as we left the hospital, with our arms and hearts empty. It was then that our healing process began and only with the strength of God walking alongside us.

Some day we will meet her, but until then I will always remember her little kicks and all of the memories my husband and I created while she was with us for the 210 days she was planned by God to be with us. Neither one of us had ever felt pain so deep. It literally seemed as if someone was twisting and turning our hearts and the tears would not cease. I even remember my husband calming me awake because I would cry and whimper in my sleep. We took each day slowly and truly leaned on God and then each other to find a new sense of normalcy. I had to forgive myself for something that I blamed my body for at the time.

Following in March of 2015, my doctor was able to find a surgical fix, which led to the beautiful blessing of our son, Greyson, who shares the same middle name as his sister (Avery). Our rainbow baby, Greyson, was born on 04/05/16. We find many ways to show remembrance of our sweet Peyton. Greyson is learning all about his big sister in Heaven and we know she is loving us from afar. Some days are easier than others and some of the deep pain felt from losing her will always be present in our hearts. Our largest supporter in this tragedy has always been God. We trust in Him wholeheartedly and find hope in spending eternity with Peyton in Heaven.

Molly Bears has created with love not only one bear for us, but now two to represent the losses we have endured and the angel babies we have waiting for us in Heaven. I know that both Peyton (11/26/2014) and Baby M (07/2017) send their love in many forms daily and while we are physically apart for now, our hearts are all connected. Molly Bears has created two beautiful bears, Peyton Bear and Baby M Bear, to allow us a sense of a physical representation for our sweet babes gone too soon. Greyson loves giving Peyton Bear and Baby M Bear hugs and they are such a comfort in our arms during those moments where our mountainous grief returns. Along with this, Molly Bears has given us an opportunity to have family pictures taken in full to represent the entirety of our family. When you see us in person, we may look like two parents with one sweet baby boy. In reality, we have three loved children and make up a family of five. This is our family and there is so much love shared between us!! My family and I thank Molly Bears for offering us the ability to have physical representations of our babies with us on this earth. The amount of handcrafted love, from the bears to the letters to the customer service portion of the organization, is simply amazing!!

"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds." - Psalm 147:3.

"He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." - Revelation 21:4.
- Melissa McCook

Declan

We are so thankful for Molly bear and how our Declan bear gives us comfort and rememberance. Evan and Declan were identical twins. Declan passed away the day they were born because of some cord accident and he had white angel wings on his chest. Love that we have our angel with us always and our molly bear gives us something to hug.
- Sara McKinney

Brynne Willow

My Molly Bear means so much to our family, as it’s a great way to remember our Brynne Willow. Our two year old loves it and even calls it sissy.
- Katy Clayton

Viviana, Charles, Paul

I wanted to share this picture. I wanted to get Santa pictures but was nervous to go alone. I asked if some mom's from my hospital's loss support group wanted to come and before we knew it we had a mom's night out. It was a positive experience and we got to share our Babies and our Bears with everyone. We raised a little awareness that day and got the message out what your organization does.
- Jennifer Phillips

Emma Marie Graziano

This Molly Bear is absolutley amazing. It is beautiful and means so much to my wife and I. Holding it reminds us that Emma is here with us through our tough times. Our journey was a long one with multiple miscarriages in the first trimester. Emma was our 3rd pregnancy with very high hopes, making it to 24 weeks of pregnancy. She will forever be our baby girl and love her with all of our hearts. We want to thank Molly Bears, and Jessica who we think made our bear. It is a beautiful tangible way to hold our angel again.
- Daniel Graziano

Christian McMichael

We lost our sweet Christian on Veteran's Day 2010. He and his twin brother Tanner were born at 25 weeks, and Christian died of kidney failure at just 18 days old. We got our Molly Bear about a year after he passed, and it's been a constant source of comfort on our hardest days.
This year we took Tanner to Disney World, and I took this picture at the Animal Kingdom Lodge. It's so very bittersweet, but it's perfect.
Our Molly Bear is the closest thing we have to getting a picture of them together again, and I am so thankful.
Thank you for helping fill the 1 lb 13 oz hole in our hearts.
- Morgan Porada

Caydean Adam

This was a hard thing for me to do but some how I worked up the courage and went to Bass Pro Shop this morning after my appointment. When I was pregnant with Caydean all I could think about was a picture of him with Santa at Bass Pro. This Santa and his elves were amazing to me. I walked up to them and asked if they wouldn't mind if I could get a picture taken like this and explained my story. Of course the tears started. I asked them not to laugh at my request. They said that Santa would be happy to do it for me. So I walked over to the line with tears still building in my eyes. As the young Landy went over and told him my story. He got up and waved me up to him and hugged me and asked me how long it's been. Asked me to sit and I said no I didn't want to be in the picture. I told him I always loved this background and wanted it for my child and this was the only way I would ever have it. So they took a couple shots and let me take one with my phone. Then after Santa prayed with me because he knew my heart was still broken. I give Bass Pro praise for the people they hire for this job. They gave me 3 copies of the picture with Caydean's bear and one of Santa praying with me.
- Tanya Sullivan

TrynLeigh Dae Ellis

This bear has helped my family so much. Our TrynLeigh Bear helps us to have something physical as a representation of our sweet angel. She went to see Santa with us and to see Christmas lights! She goes to school with my other children and sometimes we take turns sleeping with her. We recently found out we were expecting again and she will
Most definitely be a part of our family pictures from now on! We are so blessed to have this beautiful bear in our lives. While nothing can ever replace my sweet baby, this bear helps our grieving arms and hearts.
- Teirra Ellis

Westlyn

My baby girl will always have her guardian angel sister Westlyn with her. I always add my Westlyn bear family photos and pics with her sister Oaklyn. It’s the only way I will be able to have both babies together!
- Makenna Wright

Gwendolyn Everly

My biggest regret in life is that I didn't hold my daughter. She was born still at 23 weeks and had been gone for a few days so she wasn't in the best shape, at the time I just couldn't handle it. I didn't want to remember her like that. I was so excited when I learned about Molly Bears, I couldn't believe that I'd get a chance to hold her! Our Gwendolyn bear arrived not long before her first birthday and I am so grateful for that. I'm so grateful this company exists.

This is the first of many pictures of our Gwendolyn bear with our rainbow baby Jensen. I can't wait until he's old enough to understand just how important this little bear is.
- Kayla Charles

Isaiah & Herbie

Our bears allow us to tangibly include both of our boys in our lives. Molly Bears allows us to see all three of our children together, which is priceless to our family.
- Kandis Tubb

Kendall Ann

We love having our Kendall bear with us to hug and cherish. Her twin misses her sister and now we have our bear to hold onto.
- Stacey Holland